So I was looking through my tumblr and I realized I hadn’t updated this in a while, so I figured I’d ought to. I think I better start this off by saying I’m sixteen now, it’s not a very big number which brings us onto the point that I have a lot of my life to live and that this is only the beginning. At this very moment I’m almost half way through my last year of high school and by this time next year I’ll be in college, hopefully studying the A-Levels of: Digital Photography, Chemistry, Drama and Theatre Studies and English Language. That Chemistry seems to be the odd one out there doesn’t it? A lot of people think it’s very out of place, but I’ve chose to study things which interest me, Chemistry does and is also my strongest science – I suck at Physics and Biology is just so and so. I’ve worked out that when I leave High School I should have 18 GCSE’s – if all goes as planned.
One of my major hobbies is Photography, I’m really thankful for Tumblr, which is the main reason why I began to pursue the hobby/profession of Photography. I was heavily inspired by the photography I was seeing on my dashboard and began to try some of it myself. Within this one year my skills have grown and now I would someday like to work in the profession. With a camera, I see the world as my canvas; I can give beauty to almost anything just with a press of the shutter. I enjoy editing photos on Photoshop too, not airbrushing, editing the colours of pictures which I think change the tone you want to give off. I am in love with monochrome photography; black and white photos give off a whole different message in comparison to them in colour.
I’m rereading my other biography and I can’t believe how different this one is the other one, it’s unbelievable how I’ve changed in a matter of months. I believe that I’m truly finding myself at the moment. I now have an obsession with jewellery. I am in love with necklaces and rings mostly, but have a weakness for bracelets also. The types of necklaces which call out to me are quirky ones. I love owl pendants and extraordinary things like boom boxes or even a bicycle! I even have a Scrabble tile one with my initial on – one of my favourites. I’m kinda the same when it comes to rings; I have a frog which is unbelievable pretty and those ones that cover more than one finger. I love layering bracelets on my wrists too but I’m not an earring person at all.
I write songs, I was inspired by Nick Jonas and Taylor Swift. My first song was about Nick, just one explaining my feelings on his relationships with Miley Cyrus and Selena Gomez. I even have some about my feelings towards his current relationship with Delta Goodrem. None of them are bad, I’m not speaking ill of these celebrities in these songs - just basically my inner feelings and emotions I feel. I write my songs on experiences, of course I can’t write about everything or many things – I’ve never had a boyfriend – but I write about what I see from other people, I observe and write about my observations, which also contribute to my creative writing I do. One day I would like to be singing on stage with the audience singing along with me. It’d be nice to see that people have made the effort to come see me live. I would like to be an inspiration to people, I’d like to die knowing that I’ve made at least one difference in this world or at least changed one life for the better.
I love music; I can’t get enough of it. Songs and lyrics can give off so many vibes and emotions. Songs always have a clear message that are given off throughout the song, there are some which do this job better than others, but I’d really like to – one day – make an album of my own, to give out my own message. I’m always walking around with a headphone in my ear, and don’t go a day without listening to music. I just sit there with albums on repeat. I get obsessed with one song at a time, then will move onto something else, then will listen to a song I was once obsessed with and remember why I was obsessed with it, and relive it all again. When writing, I like to start off with the title, then I know what I have to work around, or I start off with a line, and then work from that. Some days I just sit down and start writing, while other days I’ll think of a line and wait till I get home to do it. Sometimes when I’m trying to get to sleep I’ll think of lines, and I’ll have to write it down, otherwise I’ll forget it. I get my ideas in the strangest of places, normally the bathroom. They rhyme quite a lot, but I think songs can rhyme as much as they like, if they have feeling and experience behind it. I just fill up notebooks with my songs, and take them to school; a poor red notebook had been passed from hand to hand one year.
That was a time when my songs weren’t as personal as they are now. I wasn’t afraid to show half of these songs to people. But now with the songs I’m writing now, I’d prefer to keep them to myself, they seem much more personal as they did back then – especially with some songs which gave some very obvious details. This one song which I based from a Taylor Swift song, I’d be happy to show strangers on tumblr, but not to people I know at school.
I wish I had a lucky number, I don’t know what mine is, according to astrology as a Virgo that makes my lucky number 5, and I haven’t seen the number 5 do anything for me. I wish 5 were like Taylor Swift’s 13, where she sees it in all sorts of ways – I have seen 13 in a weird sort of way like Taylor too, but don’t class it as a lucky number, I just see it as a lot of coincidences. I believe in magic, luck, wishing on shooting stars and 11:11. I also believe in happily ever afters, fairytales, kissing in the rain, falling in love and happiness. I’ve never seen a shooting star, but hope I will soon and always wish on the first star and rainbows, whenever I’m lucky to see them. I believe in the supernatural, ghosts and vampires too, and have sworn I’ve seen deceased relatives in the past.
I’ve always been over-talkative, an over-thinker and swear I suffer from excessive paranoia. A word I think I use a lot is amazing, it’s a great word to describe things, and hey, we’re all amazing in our own way. I tend to become too obsessive over things, always the wrong things. I’m really quirky, I randomly capitalize words when typing, I sing in the shower all the time, when I’m finished drinking I’ll bite the straw, when at my desk when I’m bored, I randomly open my drawers and take things out and read them, I’m really fidgety. I tidy my room when I bored – which isn’t very often. When in the shower, I always read the labels of my shampoo and conditioner, I like reading doctor books, especially when my family are ill, I can list like 15 things that they could possibly be suffering from, and I like reading the yellow pages. I always find songs that I can relate to, and know what song to listen to when I’m in a particular mood. I also like typing without looking at my keyboard.
I love eyes. Eyes are one of the first things I notice in a person, along with their sense of humour. Of course they have to be sweet and kind and protecting and caring. I have a dark brown pair of eyes, and I think they’re my best feature, but other people could disagree, I think people with heterochromia are very lucky, having two different eye colours at once must be amazing!
I dream a lot, and love the dreams I have. I sometimes have very vivid dreams which I can remember a couple of days after. (These dreams usually include Nick Jonas) I dream about things that I know are out of reach, I am very determined and ambitious. I’m scared about growing up, but not at the same time. I’m scared that when I’m out there, I’ll do something wrong, and I won’t have anyone behind me, I’ll have to be independent. But I want to grow up because there are so many new things to do. But soon everything I have will be gone, so I need to keep it for as long as I can, and I should really be doing that with my childhood. I know I’ll still love some of the things I did, but there’ll be more on that list.
I love the winter season – sometimes the weather does make me depressed – but I especially love Christmas – I feel is deserves a mention- being my favourite thing of the year. I want to be the one, who puts their lights up in September, cover every inch of brickwork in rainbow lights and buy all the baubles in the world for my tree. I think it’s a great time for family to get together, and that’s the meaning of Christmas, family, love and happiness.
I have to talk about my best friends, they never got a mention before, so I think they should get one this time. I’m not going to name and shame them at all; I would just like to say I’m very thankful for them. They’re there for me when I need it, I can call one of them up at god knows what hour and they’re there for me as much as they can be. One will do things for me which I wouldn’t dream of asking. One’s always behind me, knowing that I’ll get to where I want to be. I would like to tell my friends and also my family that I love them.
I think I’ve written more than last time, of course some paragraphs of this are kept the same as before, as I felt they didn’t need “updating” per se. If you’ve made it down to this line I am very grateful. If you ever need me in the future, come to me, come to my ask box and I would be happy to help you – for anything, you can be anonymous if you’d like. I would like to thank you if you’ve ever reblogged anything of mine, looked at my tumblr, liked anything or put anything in my ask box. But most of all, if you are following me. I can’t thank you enough. Thank you again.
Oh and by the way, I think I should’ve mentioned this earlier, but my name is Natalie.